Against all odds * experiences pass and present (revised) I honor U but break free ! please

 

one day you may find the courage to level up

to find  within reach all things written

the few who dared against all odds

who poured the finest of treasures

the finest of gems

who made you search deep in the four corners of that endless chasm

the one you mistaken...the one you took for granted...the one you pierced

the one who became a subject of endless debates

the one whom you planted doubts

the one confidence you striped away

for your learning curves and purest of heart I disown myself

it is something we* had to do 

the unbridled exclamations I had to endured

my character assassinated and misplaced among the crowd...

the unlearned

and yes I may look uplifted and unfazed

there were times I wish to abandon all hope and disconnect

the lifeline of self consuming events

you killed my high hopes and made a mock of things you couldn't embrace

and even the things you do embrace are far fetched 

your posturing (stance) are absent of character, if judged by mere numbers your calculus (mechanical being) lacks clarity in morality, conscience, love, feelings, emotions and these may take residence without a host

so ask (me) where have I been ? I say picking up the pieces to bring you a better picture  for a suitable return...and yes I was the one you loved best

a few years in the wild and it will come undone as for the comforters they shall disown/disconnect themselves and not for admiration 

yes a thorn I have remain like a natural hair follicle embedded of no cause

yet it matters not how many times its pulled/plucked out...it has it's own memory

I hope when you read this and it's not second hand writing

the spirit of Almighty God can stir and grant you the access

for unlocking those gifts well placed within those vaults.

I can't say no more ! 

* Please to the general public do not take any of my experiences personal, one might come across similar experiences and shake few here and there. I express and share freely...I know no other way ! Much Love and blessings to all. 

Published on

5/24/25 7:35 AM

Rafael G Gonzalez

Love be shackled

 I never knew that liking, loving or admiring some was a crime, and 

ultimately capital punishment,

I truly understand the opposite spiritual side of this and because of love 

the Almighty and Divine gave us his first born,

because his great compassion move his benevolent person to exercises

profound mercy to undeserving guest,

yet at these perilous times some equate the finest of gift's with fault-lines 

to question the very essences of life itself, 

walking in the person of Jesus, few attain the gift's some have taken for granted

and I have seen to much and be joking. 

 

Published on

2/1/26 12:10 PM

 

Rafa EL (God has healed) 

My happiest moments /Please read it again(Revised)

 

 

Just like the cosmos hang in space, in a weightless environment

Almighty God (YHWH) bears my ups/downs in the same symbiotic state we all find 

ourselves...weightless,

What the Almighty and Divine, sovereign Lord of the universe seeks in form of submission is a pure heart

with that said, something dies in (me) everyday something created internally and externally it consumes and withers the finest of (me), exhausting my reserves and I fading seeking the cause,

I wish my call came swift like the thrashing wind,

my return peaceful which my heart contends,

in the rain drops of tears, my soul soak's the journey/experience playing out an endless commotion,

in the high's and low's of distortional views, those feelings that race, shall consume just as well,

I seek the comfort of your loneliness,

your (Manic)depression,

your (anxiety) disorder,

your bi-polarism,

your autism (functional or dysfunctional)

your schizophrenia,

your social (disorders) psychopathy,

Dark triad personality (closely associated with Autism) 

your alexithymia,

any and all imbalance that strip away your true person, the sacred person...that which in labor pains were formed, 

the anomalies attached interfering with Divine gifts, spiritual cadence, expressive frequencies, bridges, channels, a network hacked,

all man-made conditions and in that comfort of your host, send them packing to the abyss never to return..."your not needed here anymore" ! 

Embracing sanity and returning to full expression, releasing the fruits of the spirit

and acquiring the attributes of Holiest and Divine,

my happiest moments were not so difficult after all.

Praise him while you can...just praise him !

Please allow (me) to worship you (YHWH)


02/24/25

Rafa EL G Gonzalez