STAY AWAKE

    Reader digest ! I find it repugnant and resent those who operate under the cloak,  of secrecy and are deceitful in ways more then one, they lack the courage to express themselves openly, their school of thought is abnormal and riddle in flaws, many suckers have taken the bait and practice makes perfect, I give the honest truth and always will no matter the cause,  at disposal many are the devious ways to confess the pure doctrine,  how long can you go into hiding and not be struck by a bolt of lightening,  or could it be a broad disorder of reasoning,  or the misalignment of a polarized complex out of reach, or the overload of fluctuations with under managed range,  for what ever reason of twist and turns engage those engines, they keep hostage the expression and hold in bondage the sacredness of the heart, the stifling of conscience, under the same disguise mislead the unaware,   how selfish to burn so many bridges and remain normal...

   To be awake entails soundness of mind, to be balanced in all aspect of daily exchange require fine tuning, in turn a person of exceptional gift's is constantly going through re-evaluation...like a renewal to remain focus and pliable, by accurate knowledge we contend with the countless hacks undermining those vibrational pulls, to be awake and sound, exceptional and gifted, through the operational of the Holiest-of-Holiest we remain fixed on the prize, very little room for stumbling and if we error the power over weakness contends the Holy spirit,  in the order of weakness and power there is never a short-slightness, and the helper is always at the scene ascertaining absolute control and undeserved kindness, So what should I say ? "keep your eye's on the prize and stay on mission" !   A time to shine befalls all, but not in the same order.    Published on 8/20/25 4:13 PM Rafael G Gonzalez

  Morning Glory, let's head out to the fields and turn over some stones  and find the most precious of pearls and timeless gems. I summons the infinite, through infinity that the works are not in vain. Your guarantee I have, and a single pause has never failed. Through the obstacles I found radiant and abundant light,  A gem hard to describe in essences, Unknown to men, Ever glowing with expressions something like a fixture, ornament from the Holiest-of-Holiest, Light of dawn shadows (me) and in that glory I feel that warm embrace, to the finest of gems, I reveal to you "what a heart can do" No other can cause so such excitement in a thousand years give away, or currently exhaust my senses...that is Jehovah's love joy, I f dreaming is the counterfeit of reality, I have been dreaming all to well, I'm certain the search will seize and the prize attained,  My devotion complete and in full embrace seeking the everlasting Vows oath...show (us) the way. Just praise him ...

   I have a deep yearn and I wish it settle the scream, screech lodge in my throat, I can write but not speak it, a mother’s desire to see her youngest, a vision that never filled her presence, I at short distance of her death-bed, she cry out a name...as something Divine stood near me, son who is that young lady sitting next to you, "mother I’m awake watching over you...no one is here", something sprang from her deep maternal instincts, I guarded her with reverence Jehovah’s finest, yet something guarded me, in purest white, beautiful as a mother’s thoughts. Rafael G Gonzalez 

 I consider Myself a person of high ( EQ=emotional intelligence ) feelings, emotions, compassion and love,  I can feel others very naturally,  exceptionally endowed with the fruits of the Holy Spirit, these take residence in my DNA, and we nourish the spark on timely basis, there is no injustice, partiality, hate, I'm a simply man, I do not covet or envy  I love and loved the lady who labored for my cause, I stood at her side willing to sacrifice as she would have,  some may lean to saying I'm boasting, yet I have all the reason to do so, in the LORD I boast greatest, I found my call, my father at work for my cause til this day and beyond, I express freely, a freeman I'm, carrying out the mandates of the Holiest-of-Holiest, I have a blood debt and thou Jesus (welcome Reign) has set me free my contention is righteous, I'm not above his example...this day, this moment or tomorrow a void permeates the  air which I inhale and exhale, that my call be m...

    I will speak truth that is alien to man, so that the conscientious alarm carrying out it's internal conflicts, can set the stage for an awaken new self. If I can be that guide in my own struggles, then I can truly be free.  And when I say free, it's not on my own accord, but by a new set of virtues absent of pass yearnings for the revelations to a higher state of conformity. Disowning the self is letting go completely all that which has been a hindrance, and embarking on a continuance journey of reparation and restoration of that newly acquire calling of awareness, Being conscience of these out of body exchanges is an overgrowth of collective assignments in life's journeys and alignment with the internal conflicts. It becomes the life long experience and duration, that can become a question of selection and not chance. How many of us at one time or another felt like life affairs had no alignment with the internal conflicts ?  Our daily routines (life affairs) a...

   The emotional mask or veil of the pass is slowly being removed and the new you, forming the trust through that new awakening. You acquiesce no trials or pressures, just a call that keeps the engine running and the fine tuning like a distress call, that your vibrating at a different level. your not running from pass fears or moments that triggers upsetting response, the focus shifts and there are new chapters in blank pages to fill. seek the moments and test the arrangements without words for cause, what ever is in the air that is worth engaging, make use of all knowledge gained and summons the highest power that which seeks and shapes that new path. How many times do we break and how many times do we mend ?  Life is like stitching and knitting...but we never give up on the call. As a filament that traverse in our holy path in the sacred journey of what is Divine, something will shake our deepest reserve that we are not alone.  turn to Almighty God and see how...

  Release from bondage all that is kept secret,   all that which is hostile and holds the expression hostage,   Express the self in purity,   express the self in the simpleness of mind to what is love,    fill the self with the fruits of the Holiest-of-Holiest,   Allow the attributes of saintly and Divine to take hold of what is rightfully his own,   express the self to the point the spoiler and usurper can’t find traction and cause it to slip,   what ever it takes to find within the self to uphold the moral conscience...stay the course,   water that sits stale and stagnant remain flat and finds no traction,   water that is constantly moving, flowing fills gaps and these new orders replace the old habits,   as the wheel in the sky turns (Celestial Chariot) doing away with the antiquated traditions, versions and cause to cease and desist that which is hindrance in the corridor of space,   this continuity of flowing livin...

  Dark age  clic here  There is something in the air, something heavy, like never felt before, yes something dark and very dense, there are countless suffering it's manifestation, it can't be seen; it's presence ever menacing like a black cloud slowly casting and forecasting events not known  to the average, it is gaining momentum...I have been watching closely no better time than current the air has matured and it's affects are just  minimum, at any given time it shall burst and the gathering spread like incense and burnt offering, that is the air that which contends, just a few more breath and what befalls one befalls all...that is the message a weighty matter, the North and South, and in between the air is stretching, all encompassing and at large a crowd in full expectation, what come out of this eerie, frightening and numbing events remains under watch.    Rafael G Gonzalez

  If I boast it's certainly not the same way others may see it fit, and if my boasting creates some kind of friction, I boast even greater, because through the operations of the Holiest-of-Holiest my person is being manifest in weakness and tribulations for the betterment of those who feel left behind...and certainly its not my cause .  Now that you know channel those feelings/energies to a higher power ! And may the idle spirit and stagnant energies don't become a hindrance in uplifting others.   Also my dearest global family as a philosophy major and educated by a prominent family in Princeton, NJ * there is no greater wisdom then that which is from above. If anyone takes issues with what we# write, take it with the one granting access to such wisdom. An exceptionally bright individual typically has an IQ score between 160 and 179, a range considered "exceptionally gifted". This level of intelligence is characterized by a profound abi...

 Too all those son's of light that remained faithful, that were not enticed by trivial offers, that held truth through the light (truth bearer's)... unlike the defector and no place was found for him, cast-out among the star's of Almighty God (YHWH) you holder's and bearer's of the light, I share with you that hope of conviction,  that steadfastness, that unwavering love for a Divine being that has crushed my heart, this day is a good day, our celestial host, Almighty and Divine feels a love and loyalty only (HE) is deserving  and worthy to be elated, praised, sanctified, laud to time infinite, please allow (me) to hold hands together, and sing a new song for the one and only....Jehovah ! Yahweh ! Jah ! YHWH !   Published on 1/12/26 9:45 PM Rafa EL G Gonzalez       

  Certain females (woman)  I'm not generalizing, but through experience; feel there is a perfect man out there searching for them, that is remote from the truth as it is from the speculation, You lost that (6) millennial ago,  so as to compensate one keeps a list of resumes (suitors) to offset that lost, true love requires sacrifice and not convenience, as a man/writer searching for the lost cause, I'm more knowledgeable on  subject, and not trivialities... as for me, I'm not the perfect man or intent to be in hosting those anomalies, yet I can make you complete (whole) and my spirituality is not a contest, maybe when the axe strikes and my head rolls, you will see the perfect man all to clearly, blood, sweat, pain, tears equals sacrifice, true love embrace all the above and the empowerment to never release, imperfect in form yet made whole through the operations of the Holiest-of-Holiest.  09/12/26 4:43pm   Rafael G Gonzalez       ...

    Slave girl : May through her you find the pleasures of your works, In the privacy of your intimacy (fellow-worker/relationship) bring her back home, #   may her death-bed be a blessing, and not unsightly to onlooker's, a tower, a rock, one of the faithful of your choice.   May you strike her with energies beyond compare, May your Divine will take order and completely restore your slave girl, in sound and perfect, today, tomorrow I shall wait.   Why do you cause so much commotion in my extremities? Did you secretly woven us, that our dates of birth into this paradise of delight correlate, and we are one at your service ?   There is joy and pain that one, can't do without the other, There is blissful birth pangs, and great joy that forgets all...I feel the same to many times from your undeserving kindness.   It is to much for me, since I was not born into your tent of holy blessings, I'm but a rough man of the nations.   I don't deserve your shi...

 How painful things are, and how painful things can be, yet painful of all is the human experience as a whole, each sorrows carries it's own tunes, we can express that sentiment, that feeling with great ease and at times releasing a destructive path, like a raging mighty river, self inflicting all goodness crushed, as blind like a binding attachment it could not let go, that pain...that sentiment...fine tuned sorrows, that rage we so madly revere, for the yearnings souls that which pain holds,  the easily channeled coerced, set free the chains that binds and release the stagnant energies and be reborn with a new image of everlasting acceptance, my apologies for the things I didn't say, and regrets for not being heard, may the words of truth stand it's trials. Rafael G Gonzalez  Published on 5/3/25 3:03 PM * My wonderful mother a great warrior past away 05/04/25 at about the same time. born on April 30th 1932 I will see you in paradise or die trying is the least I can do.

  Galatians 5:16   But I say, Keep walking by spirit and you will carry out no fleshly desire at all. In bondage I was called and released from the shackles that so much embraced me, Almighty God (YHWH) and his Divine love searched and found in me the subject for favor.  The blessings are all to obvious to me, a mother of great faith was called and she awaits the promise.    I in turn have found great mercy and undeserved kindness, I shall not overstep that. Please allow me to honor the call that which we so much regard. For spiritual warfare inside or out I am suited for theocratic order and eager to finish the mission before me. Almighty and Divine continue to nourish the spark and make of me an instrument of your choice, let me honor you and not men. ask me what is my religion ? I will say this, Love...peace and tolerance. Ask me what is my faith ? I will say this, an unbreakable bond between me and a supreme being, which I know exist and experience...

Some time ago of unsuspected events, things that happen, and surprises that endure a life time, on my way home after a bout with all kinds of challenges (anomalies) that test a man’s soul, exhausted and wishing a swift death wanting to be closer to a love one (mother) the unsuspected became the suspect bold as day light, void of humanity challenging me all over again, but this time I’m ready and time is at my side…. So I wish them all well. I refuse to judge anyone based solely on  premonition , actions or just pure observation, I would be usurping the seat of authority way beyond my humble means, If my person depended or hangs on humbleness and patience, our Lord Jesus spoke to a small crowd, and the law had to be reconfigured, For love is the instrument of correctness, and through the Holiest-of Holiest He, manifest Sovereign grandeur, Through the qualities of the Almighty and Divine, the fruits (of the Spirit) are made very obvious, and attributes speak bold...

 we seek perfection in someone else when we can't find it within our own, that is the most selfish display of perfectionism, the more I'm press the less one sees my true person, I'm a free man and I express freely I know no other way, in words and deeds and through the letters the purest of imperfections, why seek my imbalances when your void is made whole ?  I'm most aware of this flaw that reside in this contraption of flesh and bones, and at the higher level of those seeker's is the the proverbial truth and it's needs to re-arrange, I'm the recipient of death because the curse of sin,  A thousand years seeks the endurance of that trial, for the duration of borrowed time I wish to be left alone, through trials and errors, misplacement, persecution, lost-energies, periods in absences and the seeker's that never seem to flee, if your zeal burns try and not scorch others in those imbalances, yet I'm the potter's vessel and through a selection of D...