Moving soon/Domain and Host

 To all that wonderful audience that stayed with me, since the very start. Thank you all, as I wish to embrace all in tender love, compassion and best of all brotherly/sister affection. I keep you informed :}

Slave girl II

 

 

Slave girl :

May through her you find the pleasures of your works,

In the privacy of your intimacy (fellow-worker/relationship) bring her back home, #

 

may her death-bed be a blessing, and not unsightly to onlooker's, a tower, a rock, one of the faithful of your choice.

 

May you strike her with energies beyond compare,

May your Divine will take order and completely restore your slave girl, in sound and perfect, today, tomorrow I shall wait.

 

Why do you cause so much commotion in my extremities?

Did you secretly woven us, that our dates of birth into this paradise of delight correlate, and we are one at your service ?

 

There is joy and pain that one, can't do without the other,

There is blissful birth pangs, and great joy that forgets all...I feel the same to many times from your undeserving kindness.

 

It is to much for me, since I was not born into your tent of holy blessings, I'm but a rough man of the nations.

 

I don't deserve your shield of protection to such extent, but your love has healed me and that is sufficient .

 

There is no Greater God (YHWH) then that of my ancestor's of faith...make me, one of those if so wish, but please bear, I'm just a rough man of the nations.

 

I can only pay a debt with a debt, but one to many. I hope someday you will take-up my resistance, to make right.

05/04/25 Today I feel a great void, a scream...but as life goes on, I praise and laud Almighty God (YHWH) to the highest power. Another champion of faith was called to join the ranks of faithful and that is greatest of joy. She awaits her return in high regard and a warrior for Divine creeds. I'm humbled for the words she spoke to (me) before this glorious day. In the hands of Almighty God (YHWH) you rest and that is very comforting to my soul.

 

2 Corinthians 4:12 

So death is at work in us, but life in you.

 2 Corinthians 4:16
Therefore, we do not give up, but even if the man* we are outside is wasting away, certainly the man we are inside is being renewed from day to day.

* woman

 I can't say no more !

Rafael G Gonzalez

2/7/23 1:53 AM # just about this time she was under intensive care,

40 days. My love is a warrior ! 

Everlasting apologies II *

 How painful things are,

and how painful things can be,

yet painful of all is the human experience as a whole,

each sorrows carries it's own tunes,

we can express that sentiment,

that feeling with great ease and at times releasing a destructive path,

like a raging mighty river,

self inflicting all goodness crushed, as blind like a binding attachment it could not let go,

that pain...that sentiment...fine tuned sorrows, that rage we so madly revere,

for the yearnings souls that which pain holds, 

the easily channeled coerced, set free the chains that binds and release the stagnant

energies and be reborn with a new image of everlasting acceptance,

my apologies for the things I didn't say,

and regrets for not being heard, may the words of truth stand it's trials.

Rafael G Gonzalez 

Published on

5/3/25 3:03 PM

* My wonderful mother a great warrior past away 05/04/25 at about the same time.

born on April 30th 1932

I will see you in paradise or die trying is the least I can do.

A warrior's journey * (Revised)

 

Galatians 5:16

 

But I say, Keep walking by spirit and you will carry out no fleshly desire at all.

In bondage I was called and released from the shackles that so much embraced me,

Almighty God (YHWH) and his Divine love searched and found in me the subject for favor. 

The blessings are all to obvious to me, a mother of great faith was called and she awaits the promise. 

 

I in turn have found great mercy and undeserved kindness, I shall not overstep that. Please allow me to honor the call that which we so much regard. For spiritual warfare inside or out I am suited for theocratic order and eager to finish the mission before me.

Almighty and Divine continue to nourish the spark and make of me an instrument of your choice, let me honor you and not men.

ask me what is my religion ? I will say this, Love...peace and tolerance. Ask me what is my faith ? I will say this, an unbreakable bond between me and a supreme being, which I know exist and experience its manifestations in the many periods of my life's duration. He is all powerful, very visible through his creative process, I'm drawn to him for the same reason he is drawn to me. How do I worship ? In spirit and in truth.

Ask me how I found the light ? I will say this, by tracing back the foundations and man's quest for the greater revelation. Am I in ignorance may that never be the case, to emulate the father creator, I have disowned myself and seek an audience with the perfect being, that is the light, infinite knowledge, compassion, mercy and a true warrior for righteousness and justice. 

 

He is equal to all, impartial to all, none and ever will compare to the one and only. In my relentless search for the ultimate GOD, I can honestly say creation speaks in silence !

 

Should I say anymore ?

I'm constantly forced to ask within, how can we/I ever truly be a spiritual person...when our bodies (temple) of the soul, is saturated with negative energies causing so many anomalies, that interfere with that growth ? 

 

If I serve out the allotted time, certainly it is a gauntlet well fought' yet I wasn't the whole person I was meant to be !!! 

This drama that unfolds inside of me, to a point drives the affliction, challenges that become the actuating force in an inquisitive process... Of why my innocence and the crushing expectations.

  If I’m weak in flesh and yet chosen, ordain to do the powerful work’s of the spirit, then the spirit bears my weakness in the flesh. And if the spirit contends with my weakness I have become powerful. 

 

If the spirit actuates my life force, then I have overcome my greatest adversary (weakness of the flesh). For it has become my strong-hold (counter-productive), in my contemptible state.

So being weak in flesh, and contemptible...the spirit takes pleasure that I have fought a great battle in my extremities. Left for dead...died many times, yet powerful to on-looker’s, humble in understanding.

Internalized by my conflict, and much aware of how its utilized, weaponize against me, here again is my helper. The power over the spirit working it’s ancient secret formula. The flesh and weakness have become silent in their activities as the faith bears all, supports it all...that we have overcome and never left behind.

So what is asked of us ? We don’t indulge in flesh or weakness, yet there ever present ! Does the helper take pleasure in our lowest point ? See for yourself, if He adopted us in our lowest point, certainly his goal would be to make us greater in our highest ! 

 

Men/Woman of little faith, how many times can a heart break, and how many times can it mend ? If He can see through all our shortsightedness, why can’t we ?

 

Internal-conflicts Clic here !

 

* YHWH

By : Raphael G
01/06/17

Against all odds * experiences pass and present (revised) I honor U but break free ! please

 

one day you may find the courage to level up

to find  within reach all things written

the few who dared against all odds

who poured the finest of treasures

the finest of gems

who made you search deep in the four corners of that endless chasm

the one you mistaken...the one you took for granted...the one you pierced

the one who became a subject of endless debates

the one whom you planted doubts

the one confidence you striped away

for your learning curves and purest of heart I disown myself

it is something we* had to do 

the unbridled exclamations I had to endured

my character assassinated and misplaced among the crowd...

the unlearned

and yes I may look uplifted and unfazed

there were times I wish to abandon all hope and disconnect

the lifeline of self consuming events

you killed my high hopes and made a mock of things you couldn't embrace

and even the things you do embrace are far fetched 

your posturing (stance) are absent of character, if judged by mere numbers your calculus (mechanical being) lacks clarity in morality, conscience, love, feelings, emotions and these may take residence without a host

so ask (me) where have I been ? I say picking up the pieces to bring you a better picture  for a suitable return...and yes I was the one you loved best

a few years in the wild and it will come undone as for the comforters they shall disown/disconnect themselves and not for admiration 

yes a thorn I have remain like a natural hair follicle embedded of no cause

yet it matters not how many times its pulled/plucked out...it has it's own memory

I hope when you read this and it's not second hand writing

the spirit of Almighty God can stir and grant you the access

for unlocking those gifts well placed within those vaults.

I can't say no more ! 

* Please to the general public do not take any of my experiences personal, one might come across similar experiences and shake few here and there. I express and share freely...I know no other way ! Much Love and blessings to all. 

Published on

5/24/25 7:35 AM

Rafael G Gonzalez

I'm scared Excerpts ("access granted")

  

Death is a trivial matter for a warrior,

Financially I don’t chase broken dreams,

the poor and rich have embarked in a race the outcome is the same,

health, I have survived cancer and slipped Sheol and Hades once to often,

So what leads me, to say “I’m scared” is a loose tongue…

I have always feared this instrument, greater than any other weapon devised. It can be a weapon of mass destruction, and it has done so. It can set raging forest fires and consume all in it's path,

I’m scared not for my sake, but the countless unaware who take the bait setting up tripwire for bridges to burn,

Yet this instrument when in use properly can cause the spirit of the Holiest-of-Holiest to actuate and itself utter wonders, 

may your return be a joyful journey, with blessings beyond the tender mercies and underserved kindness,

Almighty God be that witness,

Rafa EL G Gonzalez

suspected ( Excerpts "Access granted")

Some time ago of unsuspected events, things that happen, and surprises that endure a life time,

on my way home after a bout with all kinds of challenges (anomalies) that test a man’s soul,

exhausted and wishing a swift death

wanting to be closer to a love one (mother)

the unsuspected became the suspect bold as day light, void of humanity

challenging me all over again,

but this time I’m ready and time is at my side…. So I wish them all well.

I refuse to judge anyone based solely on premonition, actions or just pure observation,

I would be usurping the seat of authority way beyond my humble means,

If my person depended or hangs on humbleness and patience, our Lord Jesus spoke to a small crowd, and the law had to be reconfigured,

For love is the instrument of correctness, and through the Holiest-of Holiest He, manifest Sovereign grandeur,

Through the qualities of the Almighty and Divine, the fruits (of the Spirit) are made very obvious, and attributes speak boldly...this I confess,

So what do you require of me, in this contraption of flesh and bones ? Imperfect form awaiting my final judgment !

May our zeal not carry guilt conscience, and no bridges are left behind burning "The way" in which the foundation are laid.

Rafael G Gonzalez
09/04/26

 we seek perfection in someone else when we can't find it within our own,

that is the most selfish display of perfectionism,

the more I'm press the less one sees my true person,

I'm a free man and I express freely I know no other way,

in words and deeds and through the letters the purest of imperfections,

why seek my imbalances when your void is made whole ? 

I'm most aware of this flaw that reside in this contraption of flesh and bones,

and at the higher level of those seeker's is the the proverbial truth and it's needs to re-arrange,

I'm the recipient of death because the curse of sin, 

A thousand years seeks the endurance of that trial,

for the duration of borrowed time I wish to be left alone,

through trials and errors, misplacement, persecution, lost-energies, periods in absences and the seeker's that never seem to flee,

if your zeal burns try and not scorch others in those imbalances,

yet I'm the potter's vessel and through a selection of Divine will we make available what you can't see.
 

Published on
9/10/25 11:48 PM

Rafael G Gonzalez

If I boast ! (Revised) thanks for searching my fathers library

 

If I boast it's certainly not the same way others may see it fit, and if my boasting creates some kind of friction, I boast even greater, because through the operations of the Holiest-of-Holiest my person is being manifest in weakness and tribulations for the betterment of those who feel left behind...and certainly its not my cause.

Now that you know channel those feelings/energies to a higher power ! And may the idle spirit and stagnant energies don't become a hindrance in uplifting others.

 

Also my dearest global family as a philosophy major and educated by a prominent family in Princeton, NJ * there is no greater wisdom then that which is from above. If anyone takes issues with what we# write, take it with the one granting access to such wisdom.

An exceptionally bright individual typically has an IQ score between 160 and 179, a range considered "exceptionally gifted". This level of intelligence is characterized by a profound ability to reason, solve problems, learn, and process large amounts of information quickly. People in this category are more likely to show intense curiosity, creativity, and advanced cognitive abilities compared to the general population

 

I'm very much aware of my humble beginning, an unformed liquid substance, imperfect in all aspects of life, yet on a conscience level we# speak/utter wonders. Through the power of Almighty God, I'm surprisingly and wonderfully crafted for his love joy and infinite compassion.

 

If one seeks the weakness of my Armour and defenses there will always be a leak, but I have a honor-guard with the greatest of investments towards my person, with that you shouldn't contend.

 

Published on

7/16/24 10:46 PM

Rafa EL G Gonzalez

 

*page access granted

 

#YHWH

Access-granted/subject of Almighty God (YHWH) Clic Here

A thousand years seeks (Perfection) Revised

 we seek perfection in someone else when we can't find it within our own,

that is the most selfish display of perfectionism,

the more I'm press the less one sees my true person,

I'm a free man and I express freely I know no other way,

in words and deeds and through the letters the purest of imperfections,

why seek my imbalances when your void is made whole ? 

I'm most aware of this flaw that reside in this contraption of flesh and bones,

and at the higher level of those seeker's is the the proverbial truth and it's needs to re-arrange,

I'm the recipient of death because the curse of sin, 

A thousand years seeks the endurance of that trial,

for the duration of borrowed time I wish to be left alone,

through trials and errors, misplacement, persecution, lost-energies, periods in absences and the seeker's that never seem to flee,

if your zeal burns try and not scorch others in those imbalances,

yet I'm the potter's vessel and through a selection of Divine will we make available what you can't see.

 
Published on
9/10/25 11:48 PM

Rafael G Gonzalez