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     You're much aware, that my expressions have changed it doesn't carry a heavy and weighty matter, its reconstructing the past into a new self, making invitations through deconstruction of hurtful schemes and imbalances that so much seeks my presence, as the innocence of a child the heart contends, the innocent smile that race to the receiving soul, here I'm yearns the old age drama, seeking the cause...mending the broken pieces, as light is to day and darkness is to night searching pure truth and the host at it finest, a gathering of sparks saturated the air, a soft spoken and admiringly beautiful rose, and we exchanged unbroken rhythms like energies stock-piling into it's core,   I hope someday you will come into life, and we channel those superlative expressions, all embracing and never to release. Rafael G Gonzalez    Sep 28, 2026 1:19PM  

  A thousand years will be (y)our lament, paradise a lost treasure, and I embracing a dream of hopes she couldn't find or place, a 1,000 years seeks my notes, in love Divine we* expressed it with gift's beyond, an audience awe-inspiring...the 9th son a father's yearn find.

  YHWH-slave-girl   Please clic here ! Lament-of-9th-son  Please Clic here !   soy el hijo de nueve el ultimo de una familia humilde, modesta…   cuando sali del taller sagrado un ser Divino me recibio con manos abriertas,   soy su encanto hasta este dia, y dia por dia estare y que logre su objetivo en su engendro,   sere feliz, nada ni nadie podra quebrantar ese gozo,   la alegria que siento de servir, y estar a su disposicion,   estira esta vasija y moldea...moldea, te sere algo util por que eres confiable y nada de lo que te propones a fallado.   Tus poesias Divinas ensayan mi arrededor, todo suspira grandeza, todo elojian tu santidad,   nadien como tu ni nada en lo minimo,   me eres un placer envocar tu nombre O’ Jehovah, me energizas y inspiras gran emocion,   me conmueve las largas noches..descanzo arrebatado, medito en tus magnificas obras,   Jehovah eres muy deseable, placentero, me inquietas, me siento a vert...

Not even death could change, the essence of altruistic love the spirit will exchange wonders, and the memories bring about feelings  causing it's giver to reconcile on the premise of his Divine name, that is the God (YHWH) Jehovah I so much love, and forged a everlasting bond, and search for a covenant with such ones.

  There is no greater love then the love of sacrifice, And I loved her the same,   Yet she couldn't get pass the fear of love,   for she knew it not,   in the absences of this love affair,   I summoned the ultimate sacrifice to show the way once more,   It kept (me) exhaustively waiting...and this it revealed !   Life and death is like a web, it is a fragile balancing act, yet to experience both is a blessing disguised in full display.    This path is synonymous...one of the same, when the embodiment of love searches itself,   when true love embodies self sacrifice, that is what it becomes  under the mighty sight Of Jah, life and death are but a whisper, a promise and a resurrection,  now you know with love I contend.     No hay amor más grande que el amor del sacrificio,    Y yo la amaba de la misma manera,    Pero ella no podía superar el miedo al amor,   porque no lo conocía, en ausenc...

 To rough and concede, To mild to create a lasting spark, Two rogues testing nature to what should be natural, A spoil in the making, Ancient drama all to allusive, the insecurity hostage holds can we laugh...can we smile...can we share hurts and pain... can we connect even from far away,  are we fine tuned in so many of the unseen, are there sparks in the room,  a flame all to obvious, vibrations like the sounds of harp strings in every stroke, is there harmony, peace,  is there attachments for what ever reason, the soul searches, can one bring all this together...when can a start begin from ground zero, can one release the stagnation, from poor to rich...rich to poor, from chronic health to extreme vibrations, from young to old, from old to young...a seekers choice Surely we have missed the ancient allusive drama and have lived in shackles, even with broad knowledge (paradise) is just in love with rogues if that be the case,  I can't say no more ! Rafael G Gon...

As a public servant in service to the people, I come across those with inquisitive thoughts and I surely accommodate their questions. Some are prone to ask about my age, so as a counter "I ask them" do you want to know physical age or my spiritual age ? For the common (average) my physical age has an expiration date, from the incubation period to being conceived cast out  my life's journeys is transitional. I won't go into details but there be a resurrection. My spiritual age, my birth in the memory of Almighty God, in the workshop of that supreme being that number is irreverent because I am his property. "The Almighty One" has complete authority over the creative process and copy right to bring about a carbon copy of this subject in every detail. So if my physical age can trick your sense, certainly my spiritual age would be something else to consider. So being subjective to eternal energy my existence is ageless.  To the unlearned time becomes a state o...

  Two silhouette choreograph a tango (dance) to the fine tuning of the universe,  sounds and frequencies all to obvious,   its notes celestial poetry, nothing like Divine harmony, a host of awesome inspiration permeates, impregnates the air,  Jehovah stimulates my senses, so I praise and praise. Rafael G Gonzalez 09/08/26  5:04am 

                                               Only sister Lee               Blessings will shower your way...lovely and precious

 Where should I start ? My call to return, how the Holiest-of-Holiest had a wrestling match to lessen my return, after ex-amount of years, the greatest of fights were waged in the spirit realm and not physical. While In my years of absences, I made it my own to engage the enemy at the highest level of his counterfeits. To my own detriment I disowned myself, selfishness had no place to hide. I took on the model of welcome reign (our teacher "the greatest man who ever lived"). I embarked on a journey few have the call, I became a martyr everyday. I reason like Samson "please oh God (YHWH) take me to the columns just one more time" from the great gospels to the prophecies I was your messenger. The countless that awakened beyond my expectations. My Lord always at the scene "I can say very openly I walked through the valley of death". My Host Almighty and Divine made (me) his instrument a useful one. Everyday I became more embolden fear took a long ...

 My dearest (YHWH) piercing into the looking glass my expressions get heavier in the pace of time, I no longer just see the external me,  but the complete subject hand picked and molded, for your fine works, continue the insight and never depart  my love has never been greater, my attachment and bonding is pure energy, the events deep in my heart, the restless drama racing unfolding  unable to contain, do we* exchange the pure language ?  my desire is to ultimately get to know (access granted), Divinity in all it's essences...that is much to ask ! yet I'm driven to embrace what I have missed long ago, you are my love crush and this I can't and will not deny, correct all my side-stepping...fault-lines, pay no heed to the miscalculations of our enemy, and make him slip... at the final call take me, home a place suited for each other blessed be the Almighty and Divine to time indefinite to time infinite. Rafael G Gonzalez  *YHWH  10/4 26 9:18 AM  ...

    Sadness consumes me, yet not as much as the joy that vibrates and springs from deep roots— a collaboration of synthesis and synergy, enigmatic to the dreamer and weaver of visions. In the mid-morning dew, a temperate blend communicates a vast awakening across open fields; amidst this joyful exchange for Divine glory, only you remain.  Rafael G Gonzalez La tristeza me consume pero no tanto como la alegria  que vibra y brota en raiz profunda es una colaboracion de syntesis y sinergia enigmatica para el ensallador y tejedor de suenos en el rocio de media manan~a, un templado misto comunica despierto enorme en los campos abriertos para la gloria Divina en el intercambio alegre... solo faltas tu. Sept.22 7:44Pm  Rafael G Gonzalez 

   What the average sees it matters not, what is a weightier outcome is when a subject pierce into the looking glass and a total person is revealed with profound insight, which entails a greater search into the internal secret person and expressing freely those findings without fear or regret to the highest power an audience is nourish, empowered and set free So what the average sees is not the total person, but a partial portrait of the unseen, in a myopic condescending scope lean more on things unseen, which is elusive to the average. Rafael G Gonzalez

   In millennial Dawn which is not far from where I sit, in my heart springs a wonderful speculation with greatest of hope to find myself embraced by a companion set for the mission, we under oath...send me, send me... Our enemy and that of my beloved father (YHWH) under the illusion, impression that through weakness and lower threshold the advantage leaned over to his side, yet deep within Divine instructions resides and stems a reserve to mend the broken pieces, with eagerness and replenished energies I shall find that hope like a mirror in front of me, so what should I say’ weakness you are at a turning point, My helper is Divine, his superlative actions can mend trillions of errors and correct codes of the “sacred spiral” with that kind of love I contend, and yes I can gladly say my weakness has become my stronghold, because my helper will not release or leave the broken pieces yearning without mending, Should we* say anymore ? From Sheol or Hades make my re...

    The memories of someone loved is not easy to shake, it lingers...even postponing daily activities just for the thought, reminiscing of events that led the fleeting soul for a moments pause, the exchange, the eventualities, the innocence crushed, finding a distraction, the excuses, how we grew into bitterness, how all goodness became the hollow void, how we took charity for the resentfulness lodged deep into lingerness, the thought ever present, the affliction...the chaos, can we mend the broken pieces and find spirituality to shake a madness so ingrained ?  Yet I was courting the process through a mutual and Divine courtship so infused few  have insight of it's daily activities.      Published on 1/6/26 3:45 AM (9th son) Rafa EL God (YHWH) has healed.

 The world at large is entering a dark age, where rule based order is no longer a reliable  model. A new age of turmoil and savagery where a few men and woman operate  above the law, replacing the old age speculation no longer attainable. A system attacking itself a hack within that frame, destroying the foundations it so labored through institutions of good will and the front it veiled. Within their hearts they reasoned and conscience found no place for speculations, What is not speculative is a new era and spawn that will completely envelop, what is unattainable. Those are the woes and laments of a experiment gone wrong.    Published on 1/21/26 8:22 AM Rafael G Gonzalez   

 He that examines me, is familiar with me, and there is no partiality, His complete acquaintance has been made available and I feel no restraints or constraints,  For bad or for worst, and I have walked that path, never has there been a detachment. So if any other makes eyes at me, I shy and slip away, so one can learn from me, or remain in your judgement sit...for times duration. My intentions remain veiled and abstract,stifled,and ridiculed...yet a thousand years couldn’t remain in the judgement sit. Rafa EL G Gonzalez

  Evento major/best read in English original I have dedicated last 5 years to writing about, my love crush...thou many back some time.  If my sleep deviated for a moment it was worth all the while...several hours meditating, several hours writing, a few here and there in prayers. And then day-breaks from the far-east a piercing light boldly, slowly cast darkness into surprising delight. Day-walker's march to the chant of feathers in flight, choreographic muse like a choir fine tune.  From the stage (heavenly realms) to the audience (Earthlings), Divine poetry showcase the finest amphi-theatrics (open-air) drama...the main attraction like no show on earth. The main event cracks open curtains (clouds) and unveils a host of intrigues, fascination for the imagination the spectacle of true love joy and all embracing...but who the invited, and who the guest ? and the performers that never wear or burn out.  The greatest and priceless events we all take for gra...

   Death is a trivial matter for a warrior, Financially I don’t chase broken dreams, the poor and rich have embarked in a race the outcome is the same, health, I have survived cancer and slipped Sheol and Hades once to often, I have denied the pit the spoils of death and left it yearning, hungry and a mouth to feed, So what leads me, to say “I’m scared” is a loose tongue… I have always feared this instrument, greater than any other weapon devised. It can be a weapon of mass destruction, and it has done so. It can set raging wild, forest fires and consume all in it's path, "I’m scared" not for my sake, but the countless unaware who take the bait setting up tripwire for bridges to burn, Yet this instrument when in use properly can cause the spirit of the Holiest-of-Holiest to actuate and itself utter wonders,  may your return be a joyful journey, with blessings beyond the tender mercies and underserved kindness, Almighty God be that witness, Rafa EL ...

    Thank you Almighty sovereign LORD universal host, Divine and omnipresent, Thank you for making (me) part of "the last call"  for taking into consideration the good for anything subject riddled in contempt, please allow (me) to invoke, praise, laud, worship, and sanctify your saintly person, with every stroke of the ink pen I call and summons the supreme power structure, the fruits of your spirit home in...chime in... and attributes of pure Divinity carries out a restless search, let's stretch time' when was the last, that your abundance of undeserved kindness not besiege (me) ?  When was the last...the search didn't reveal your heart's yearns ? I til these very moment have a love crush and this will be everlasting (Covenant) I have become the co-worker as the expression race through my soul to write, pen down  these vibrational drives that overcome "a draft pick" still in the earliest stages of your craftsmanship, your much to kind...this much...

 The position of conscience is this, the greater the opposition in equal terms should be the resolve, the greater the resistance in equal terms greet it's conditions.  A well train conscience is constantly re-evaluating it's host and setting in place the alignments, so that the path of righteous is made complete, in the balancing act we make credible use of those implants, to move in synchronization with the host (Jehovah) that has our intentions in best regard,  the conscience bows, submits and is at a constant state of awareness, it has an impartial exchange with it's counterpart, what is the source of origin at it's core ? why is this other you' a guidance, a source framed within the self and found no other place ? this other voice that speaks louder than any other vocalized instrument, it has the power to cause, actuate, and transform the missing pieces of those enigmatic links (thrift) Love and conscience had a debate a profound exchange while we were asleep an...

    You are a finish product, Jehovah's love joy...do you know or have become aware of his call towards you ? Have his surgical implants spoken to you lately ? Does your DNA (his copy right and intellectual property) carries out a restless search, and have you been awake, alert to fill in the blanks for which there is no detachment ? His eyes are on you, and so a power structure is a force field upon the rising and setting of your wonderful grace.  When the Almighty and Divine (Host-of-Host) Sovereign and LORD makes a choice it's impossible to shake, when the (Holiest-of-Holiest) seeks what is rightfully his, what power can deny ? A comforter and like a feather in flight he carries you in the wings of love, rising ever higher until riding the clouds. And in the same gentle motion sets you down, that was a joy ride. When Jehovah Almighty God (YHWH) called you out from the pipe-lines of life and gladly, joyfully received you in blessings and made you his choice. ...

    Egret flower To the devastation's of war and famine that follows right behind like the four rider's of apocalyptic scene's no human can embrace in a right mind set. There will always be a more serene vision for the oppressed and less fortunate. They shall rise with wings of phoenix and from the ashes deconstruct the instruments of hatred, and be the most blessed for their steadfastness in hope of exchange. I feel completely at ease and I'm not just jiving that through-out life's challenges, ordeals I wouldn't have enjoyed the way it has transformed and created the other half which I been longing for. I can truly express fully the whole person molded and placed in reserves for the greater awakening. How do I see (me) a man to be held in contempt or a man for the greater works ? Almighty God (YHWH) is my witness...and so here I'm Consciousness awake and rise from the deep slumber, express that which has been asleep for the final trial and judge...

  Jehovah (YHWH) my wonderful love, my Divine father (creator) how lovely you have become, how desirable I find your spirit (person) to be, I would feel abandoned and left behind, if an everlasting covenant couldn’t be forged, reached between us, I be happiest if my spirit person be engulfed...draft in a full embrace, an everlasting attachment is what I seek most, I couldn’t ask anything more, and that is a question of time, your everlasting supreme love I keep so dear and sacred, certainly your my profound love crush !   Rafa EL G Gonzalez 4/17/26 08:40AM

      one day you may find the courage to level up to find  within reach all things written the few who dared against all odds who poured the finest of treasures the finest of gems who made you search deep in the four corners of that endless chasm the one you mistaken...the one you took for granted...the one you pierced the one who became a subject of endless debates the one whom you planted doubts the one confidence you striped away for your learning curves and purest of heart I disown myself it is something we* had to do  the unbridled exclamations I had to endured my character assassinated and misplaced among the crowd... the unlearned and yes I may look uplifted and unfazed there were times I wish to abandon all hope and disconnect the lifeline of self consuming events...and now this you killed my high hopes and made a mock of things you couldn't embrace and even the things you do embrace are far fetched  your posturing (stance) are absent of character...

  Everything is meaningless when I hold the greatest of means, happiness and self fulfillment aren't achieved in the abundance of the eye's view, life takes on a different trajectory when abundance become enough and by all means the whole person is manifest like light and shades in a complete day cycle (subtle), we hardly take into account the transition but very visible to the well learned,  to be gainfully intuitive the adaptation is meaningless if we didn't have a guide, in our ups/downs and fault-lines the enrichment and vastness made riddles of what is considered valuable and what is low grade, in the Lord and Almighty God I found every purpose to which that guide labored and is at work to this day to bring forth a suitable vessel to frame in his grandiose glory, it would be oblivious to (me) to take up means (trivialities), when I have all the resources, with that said in Almighty God (YHWH) I trust...in debt and meaningful needs, carry-out your Divine will !  Yes, ...

 I never knew that liking, loving or admiring someone was a crime, and  ultimately capital punishment, I truly understand the opposite spiritual side of this and because of love  the Almighty and Divine gave us his first born, because his great compassion move his benevolent person to exercises profound mercy to undeserving guest, yet at these perilous times some equate the finest of gift's with fault-lines  to question the very essences of life itself,  walking in the person of Jesus, few attain the gift's some have taken for granted and I have seen to much and be joking.    Published on 2/1/26 12:10 PM   Rafa EL (God has healed) 

 It hurts to learn the "TRUTH" and I wasn't born in it, what maybe carved out of it, even half truth remains controversial, through accurate acknowledgement, trials and errors we're reborn into it,  slowly and meticulously like light and shades one is drawn to it, those who seek the objective conscience, light from a distance (remote) stars that seem far away so small to the receiving eyes yet speaks grandeur so Divine, a call for the few... I rise from the ashes, reconstruct a new (me) to give chase to my love crush  and there be no seconds, thirds or fourth, of the same, but an eternal poetic verse.      Monday, December 29, 2025 Rafa EL God (YHWH) has healed.    Resucito de las cenizas   Duele aprender la "VERDAD" y no nací en ella.  Lo que tal vez se desvió de ella,  incluso la media verdad, sigue siendo controvertido.  A través del reconocimiento preciso, las pruebas y los errores, renacemos en ella.  Lenta y met...

  If I can't achieve it, I exert him until he can set me free, because I want to sing and ride like the wind, destination free, loyalty is the vestment, attire of the Almighty God,  and this quality I shall attain as the gift of trials, I shall seek and earn his loyal love, his heart mend in the vastness of memories, His saintly person radiate, vibrate with extreme joy and in that excitement feel  a total comfort, harmony of what is Divine, Should I continue pressing the qualities of your person ?  In my lowest point which is the deeps, a call is heard of that wonderful, awesome jubilee we share. I wish to have known your works earlier to color ink those moments in pause, take (me) home a place where we are suited for each other, in the cradle of paradise, in the clouds of invisible host, draft (me) into that stock pile of purest energy...but do as you wish, a Divine will be at work this much I'm well aware. Praise and laud the Almighty God, that of Abraham, Moses, J...

    fuerzas-especiales-me-abrigan   May the order and kingship have no end, and not just bound to earth. May the universe be the expanse of loyal subjects to colonize, your works are marvelous and in all my humbleness I speak in riddles not yet foreseen, Your greatness can’t be measured in numbers by mere mortals, their existence is like the dust particles,cosmic drift that have not yet settled, they are lost and have no direction. Seek out the choicest accordingly, may their vibrational drive equate melodies in your celestial abode, eternity and infinity are your kin. In labor pains all the vast expanse declared your glory, All the commotion you stir in my soul and not by chance, I keep writing,vigilant and upright...yet there is a void only you can fill ! I have missed thee for a thousand year, yet you keep account of every stroke of breath in my contemptible state, it is my vehement desire to fully stretch this potter’s vessel...holding a promised r...

 The collection* consist of more then 250 original writings "Access Granted" is not published at this time. There all copy right at the library of congress, my intentions is for the audience to read and reflect on the many experiences life dishes out. I hold back nothing and speak with a clear conscience. Only a few notes are available at this time...I'm working so, please bear with me, and thank you all the global family and friends for staying with us in the journeys. Rafa EL G Gonzalez 07/20/26

 I have never been in a such a confuse state, in that which I find little answers to pressing issues and unsolved riddles. Puzzles can't come together unless, there be information and fluency in reasoning. By all means I shall find the way or ways find me..I search all complexities, understanding, and few carry such awareness. In God Almighty (YHWH) I place the eventualities of all hopes.  with a heavy heart, a clear conscience and the weapons to conduct spiritual warfare, I submit what remains of this contraption of flesh and bones, and a spirit that just won't give up the righteous cause. In prayers and supplications, a yearn that holds my father spirit at a stand-still, and a love never to release !     Nunca he estado en un estado tan confuso, en el que encuentro pocas respuestas a problemas apremiantes y acertijos sin resolver. Los enigmas no se resuelven a menos que haya información y fluidez en el razonamiento.    Sin duda encontraré el camino, o lo...

  I have forged a dream that isn't far from reality and that is to hold hands with eternity, I would feel left behind if an everlasting covenant wasn't the front runner between (me)  and my Divine  being (Host), My beloved along side (me) as the test of times, we made it together... If dreaming is the counterfeit of reality I boast greatest, I seek the person of a benevolent perfect being that is the total package to fill my inquisitive yearns, you ask very little of (me) and in words or actions I feel so small...and that I am, In the spirit realm your fights and battle-fields are unequal, yet I feel unaccomplished in my call,  He is my life's missing link, in a complex web and maze without outlets I wish to remain, trapped in his infinite greatness, the search that makes (me) whole and complete, If there is a way I shall find it, or die trying... and return doing the same, it's the least I can do, In the corridor of 'time and space'... in my absences, my heart...

    Reader digest ! I find it repugnant and resent those who operate under the cloak,  of secrecy and are deceitful in ways more then one, they lack the courage to express themselves openly, their school of thought is abnormal and riddle in flaws, many suckers have taken the bait and practice makes perfect, I give the honest truth and always will no matter the cause,  at disposal many are the devious ways to confess the pure doctrine,  how long can you go into hiding and not be struck by a bolt of lightening,  or could it be a broad disorder of reasoning,  or the misalignment of a polarized complex out of reach, or the overload of fluctuations with under managed range,  for what ever reason of twist and turns engage those engines, they keep hostage the expression and hold in bondage the sacredness of the heart, the stifling of conscience, under the same disguise mislead the unaware,   how selfish to burn so many bridges and remain normal...